Wednesday 17 December 2014

Differences

So many meanings, so many sides, yet does it matter that we're all a bit different?

People talk. I know as well as you do that at the end of the day your last impression will be the topic of discussion for everyone you may know. Now it's not like your life is that interesting but words have a funny way of making them seem so. Your actions define you up to the point of your last encounter and views change as if broken in an instant. Do people still hold onto the perception of what you were or could a few changes shift it all. Does it really matter if we seem a bit 'different'?

Change is inevitable but recognising a person for who they truly are matters the most. You could listen to every misguided view by those around you and build your choices based on their views; but wouldn't that make you a puppet to others opinions? Advice is useful but identity is something you create, not others for you.

Summers are always funny for me although I'd rather not say why. They're more of a reminder of the reason behind most of my choices. It's quite hard to be consciously aware of yourself as an individual though it is definitely something I'm grateful for. Most people don't really consider their views before claiming them as their own. Remember though, that once you create that perception it's very hard to break it from your head. You need to be able to let go once in a while, despite how difficult it may be.

I used to hold on so much to what I thought people could be. There was always this desire to see someone in the brightest of lights, envisioning them as an ideal rather than the reality that stood before me. Guess that made me a dreamer of sorts; forgive, forget and move on was a mantra at one point. Then life took over and after countless falls and nobody to pick me up, it seemed as if I was pretty much on my own in this big world of ours. So I held my ground for once and decided that this was my choice and I could change it if I wanted to.

There are people out there who are always going to see you as a tool. Someone to use? A person who won't say no? Friends till there's no worth anymore? When have you done something for someone without thought of gain? Given back more than what was worth?

So many mistakes, so many successes and yet so much doubt. We are after all human aren't we? Guess some of us are just a bit different?